I knew today would be hard. I woke up to nightmares and a feeling of dread over the CT scan tomorrow. To be honest, yes I am worried about how far the cancer has spread, yet I am even more worried about the IV for the contrast. I have horrible veins that roll and getting an IV in is nigh impossible. Yet one can’t live in fear all day so I dragged myself out of bed and have spent all morning on self-care.
Up 1st? A photoshoot! I HAVE PAIR eyewear in the Quinn frames and I can change the toppers depending on my outfit, mood, or both! I saved my new toppers for today knowing I would need a pick-me-up. At my advanced age of 54 I have enough stuff that finding something new to collect was tough, and these glasses fit the bill. I love being unique and weird!
Next? A manicure! I wanted something to go with my medical bracelet and rainbow fitbit band so I chose a Halloween BLOOD RED and I have to say I am very happy with it.
Next? Browsing my favorite clothes sites for Halloween wear. This is my favorite holiday and I wear stuff from Halloween year round. Yup… I am weird! I found a black cat sweater and some leggings. Just a few staples to keep me excited for after surgery.
Now? I think it’s time to relax in front of the TV and watch some Virgin River on Netflix, maybe play some Harry Potter and Animal Crossing on my Switch. I am spoiled, my husband hooked it up to our TV, haha! Then after dinner I will play some World of Warcraft with Charlie, my husband. Head to bed early as I need to be at the hospital by 8 AM.
In summary, I WILL get through this stressful day, get some sleep, and survive the test.
Have a great day everyone and remember- no matter how stressed you get SELF CARE is real and vital.
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